Why I Did These Pages
Saturday, 21 April 2007 05:38:46 PM
For many years I have been following the
Princess of Wales. I have collected Woman's magazines from Weddings,
Baptism, etc. Some as it turns out seem to be quite valuable now. These
pages have been categorised into various colours she wore, her famous
hats, pictures with Charles, her children, her trip to India, her Red
Cross work, and with Mother Therese & Nelson Mandela etc
was born 2 weeks before my eight-month-old son died of Sudden Infant
Death Syndrome. My baby Andrew ripped up my New Idea magazine with
Princess Diana and baby Prince William. From that day I have looked at William grow and always
wondered what my son would have been like today had he lived. As my son
died on the 12th July 1982 and William was born 21st June just 3 weeks
before. So for many years I was very busy dealing with grief and my next
2 babies, I seldom brought books, or magazine with any of her
photographs. I had a in my collection from wedding etc and then
collected more after she died. I still cry when I see he on TV or read
books about her life and death.
I am afraid I
was always looking in admiration of her personal growth from "Shy
Di" to a very confident and beautiful young woman. I am guilty of
buying the books and magazines after she died, from the very people who that seem to have urged
photographers to intrude on her
life to the point it took her life away from us all, or so we are lead
to believe. For this I am
That sadly is
where that chapter stopped. Her life taken from us too soon and of
course her much-adored sons Prince William and Prince Harry have lost
So much has been written about her after
her death and photographs have still been appearing in magazines, books
have been written. Some of these have left a very unpleasant feeling
about her short life. All our mistakes are not played out for the world
to see and hear. Even today we still are bombarded with it. Will the
truth ever emerge?
No matter what
your feelings are on her life, we will never know the anguish that
Prince Charles and Princess Diana went through. That is private, not for
our eyes and ears.
We must now let
her be at peace at last, something she fought so hard for. Many have
written that she sought publicity and played her part in receiving the
attention when needed. At times she appeared to be seeking some
admiration for her deeds and compassionate work, but seems she was merely
seeking some solace and comfort in her troubled times, when all seemed
to be getting her down. She was not appreciated whilst living for her
wonderful efforts from the royal family. She was unique and no one will
ever fill her shoes.
I am sure she
would not have wanted to be a saint type person like Mother Theresa and
held up in the same way she obviously felt for Mother Theresa.
There is no
doubt Prince Charles upbringing has had an impact on his ability to make
his own choices on to whom his partner was to be. We are not Royal
and we have absolutely no idea what a burden it has been for them all.
The Queen has truly taken on her responsibly with deep convictions and
loyalty to the Throne. However it has not been without cost to their
lives. The high divorce rate in this family must sadden her deeply.
Now we are approaching 9 years since we lost Princess Diana. He sons are
grown and I am sure will have a hard time escaping the media. We might go
off the rails and slip from time to time. But all they do is out there for
the whole world to judge.
Now that Prince Charles has married Camilla, we seems to be seeing again
more photographs and talk of her accident and the inquiry into that fateful
I still simply cannot believe she has gone. She will never age and she will
remain eternally young, sweet and beautiful. Her style grace, clothes and hats
will be etched in history as our 'Style Di'. I have seen any Hollywood stars fill the
huge gap she has left. Princess Diana looks so attractive as she matured
with making her own mark with what she wore.
Now I have visited
Althorp in July 2005,
I feel a strange closeness to her. If the
Earl Charles Spencer had not opened the house to visitors I would never had
to chance to see her dresses and some of childhood memories, and just to
feel close to her, as no one has
done anything decent in her memory. So for this I am so grateful. I went
there on the anniversary of my baby son's death. So I sat there for hours in
the solace of her burial spot on the island, thinking about her and my
- The night that
Princess Diana was to die I was sitting here at my computer very late.
Actually it was the early hours of the morning, and I had this
overwhelming urge to search for the words to Stop the Clocks a
poem that W. H. Auden wrote and that was read in the movie as part of an
eulogy in Four Weddings and a Funeral. The Internet of
course turned up the poem within seconds and I read them feeling quite
uneasy, when I read these words. Some time later
that morning, we were to hear that Princess Diana , had died. Those
words came back to haunt me. I looked few
days later, for those words I had saved and saw the time was 12.55am 31
August 1997. Here are those words for those who would like to read them.
W H Auden
all the clocks and cut off the telephone.
the dog from barking with a juicy bone.
the pianos, and with muffled drum
out the coffin, let the mourners come.
airplanes circle moaning overhead
in the sky, the message He is dead.
crepe bows round the white necks of public doves.
policeman wear black cotton gloves.
was my north, my south, my east, my west.
working week and my Sunday rest.
noon, my midnight, my talk, my song.
thought love would last forever; I was wrong.
stars are not wanted now put out everyone;
up the moon and dismantle the sun;
away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
nothing now, can ever come to any good.
Weddings and a Funeral.... just so fitting for our Princess.